second day

things went really well....just kinda 'out there', if ya know what i mean....loopy! it's the normal stuff that just seems different somehow.

no dreams last night, good night's sleep. toe cramps, but likely not related!

i'm off to California next week, wednesday through following tuesday....which means long flights. long flights usually kill me, so we'll see if there's a difference this time....like maybe the not being able to smoke for 7 hours won't cause me to have fits!

more later

First Day w/Chantix.....new use for the ashtray?

So, you wonder, how it's going?

Here’s my take on the first day with Chantix – a brilliant idea, by the way, developed by German scientists. Does that surprise me? Not at all.

Anyhoot – first pill, first day: think most of what I felt was all in my head. The anxiety of number 1 – quitting; number 2 – worrying about all the side-effects mentioned in their advertising! The most feared to me is nausea! ARGH! Don’t really care if I have a heart attack, just don’t wanna puke!

Here’s how it went. Felt (other than anxious) fine until around 9:15 when I got into to the elevator to go outside for a ciggie. My contacts were bugging me so I shook my head and immediately got dizzy and saw double! By the time I got out of the elevator (5 floors) I was fine. One of the effects? I have no idea! Caused by anxiety? Probably! Then there were the weird dreams….not bad, not frightening. Colorful. The first thing I remembered when I awoke was the dream was everyone at work wearing the same color two different days. Just weird.

Today is much better…however, I seem to be a little distracted somehow. The stuff I normally do by rote seem to not quite be there….towel-drying my hair this morning seemed different, you know how you always do stuff like that the same way every time! Can’t even explain what was different, just know it was.

One thing I happily noticed this morning was there were more cigs left in my pack than there would normally have been….meaning I had smoked much less than usual and didn’t even notice! Now that’s great….I’m not caring that I’m not noticing that I’m not smoking as much! Does that even make sense? Kinda cool how it just makes ya not care. Very strange stuff.

Update tomorrow >

first pill tomorrow morning....

i will take it and forget it! i'll report at the end of the day tomorrow... first through fourth day is one pill in the morning. after fourth day it's one pill in the morning, one in the evening. i'll report daily.