Okay.....sorry about not keeping a daily record, but for some reason I was a little distracted for the first 3 weeks. We got the pills October 7. We were both done 3 weeks, 3 days later. Neither of us needed to smoke. Chantix is amazing. Neither of us had any ill effects. The 'nightmares' for both of us were simply strange dreams....I had dreams about people I haven't seen or spoken to in years. I'm still kinda distracted....but it's getting better, more focused on things I didn't focus on because I was always chasing the few minutes to break away for a ciggie!
We're still on the pills....for the second month. Neither of us want to take a chance of losing this lack of even thinking about having a ciggie....it truly is amazing.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
second day
things went really well....just kinda 'out there', if ya know what i mean....loopy! it's the normal stuff that just seems different somehow.
no dreams last night, good night's sleep. toe cramps, but likely not related!
i'm off to California next week, wednesday through following tuesday....which means long flights. long flights usually kill me, so we'll see if there's a difference this time....like maybe the not being able to smoke for 7 hours won't cause me to have fits!
more later
no dreams last night, good night's sleep. toe cramps, but likely not related!
i'm off to California next week, wednesday through following tuesday....which means long flights. long flights usually kill me, so we'll see if there's a difference this time....like maybe the not being able to smoke for 7 hours won't cause me to have fits!
more later
Thursday, October 8, 2009
First Day w/Chantix.....new use for the ashtray?
So, you wonder, how it's going?
Here’s my take on the first day with Chantix – a brilliant idea, by the way, developed by German scientists. Does that surprise me? Not at all.
Anyhoot – first pill, first day: think most of what I felt was all in my head. The anxiety of number 1 – quitting; number 2 – worrying about all the side-effects mentioned in their advertising! The most feared to me is nausea! ARGH! Don’t really care if I have a heart attack, just don’t wanna puke!
Here’s how it went. Felt (other than anxious) fine until around 9:15 when I got into to the elevator to go outside for a ciggie. My contacts were bugging me so I shook my head and immediately got dizzy and saw double! By the time I got out of the elevator (5 floors) I was fine. One of the effects? I have no idea! Caused by anxiety? Probably! Then there were the weird dreams….not bad, not frightening. Colorful. The first thing I remembered when I awoke was the dream was everyone at work wearing the same color two different days. Just weird.
Today is much better…however, I seem to be a little distracted somehow. The stuff I normally do by rote seem to not quite be there….towel-drying my hair this morning seemed different, you know how you always do stuff like that the same way every time! Can’t even explain what was different, just know it was.
One thing I happily noticed this morning was there were more cigs left in my pack than there would normally have been….meaning I had smoked much less than usual and didn’t even notice! Now that’s great….I’m not caring that I’m not noticing that I’m not smoking as much! Does that even make sense? Kinda cool how it just makes ya not care. Very strange stuff.
Update tomorrow >
Here’s my take on the first day with Chantix – a brilliant idea, by the way, developed by German scientists. Does that surprise me? Not at all.
Anyhoot – first pill, first day: think most of what I felt was all in my head. The anxiety of number 1 – quitting; number 2 – worrying about all the side-effects mentioned in their advertising! The most feared to me is nausea! ARGH! Don’t really care if I have a heart attack, just don’t wanna puke!
Here’s how it went. Felt (other than anxious) fine until around 9:15 when I got into to the elevator to go outside for a ciggie. My contacts were bugging me so I shook my head and immediately got dizzy and saw double! By the time I got out of the elevator (5 floors) I was fine. One of the effects? I have no idea! Caused by anxiety? Probably! Then there were the weird dreams….not bad, not frightening. Colorful. The first thing I remembered when I awoke was the dream was everyone at work wearing the same color two different days. Just weird.
Today is much better…however, I seem to be a little distracted somehow. The stuff I normally do by rote seem to not quite be there….towel-drying my hair this morning seemed different, you know how you always do stuff like that the same way every time! Can’t even explain what was different, just know it was.
One thing I happily noticed this morning was there were more cigs left in my pack than there would normally have been….meaning I had smoked much less than usual and didn’t even notice! Now that’s great….I’m not caring that I’m not noticing that I’m not smoking as much! Does that even make sense? Kinda cool how it just makes ya not care. Very strange stuff.
Update tomorrow >
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
first pill tomorrow morning....
i will take it and forget it! i'll report at the end of the day tomorrow... first through fourth day is one pill in the morning. after fourth day it's one pill in the morning, one in the evening. i'll report daily.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
the beginning of the end....of smoking, that is....
MoFM went for her annual checkup today and asked her doc for Chantix....for both of us. Actually, she told her doc i kept 'misplacing' the prescriptions my doc gave me, so he offered to write me one, too. GREAT!! So...we will get the 'scripts' filled together, and end the battle with the cigs! We plan to share any nightmares we have and any other weird symptoms. This will be good. Smoking is such a stupid, stupid crutch, but certainly not an easy one to get past.
What will it be like not to have the NEED to run out of the building every 2 hours or so at work? What will it be like to have a car that doesn't smell like an ashtray? What will my clothes do without the stench of smoke? My balcony will even smell like the Jasmine growing on it instead of lingering stale smoke. Wow. Why didn't I think of this before.....like 30 years ago? I did. I quit in 1990 for a full year. Gained 40 pounds, which made it difficult to play soccer....at least I convinced myself the weight made it more difficult to run than the smoking! What caused me to pick it up again? I was still married to the smoking Gorton who had set his smoke down in an ashtray, and I picked that sucker up like I'd never quit. Unbelievable. That's all it took for me to somehow justify starting again. DUMB!!
Anyway, I will keep a running account of how it's going. Stay tuned.
What will it be like not to have the NEED to run out of the building every 2 hours or so at work? What will it be like to have a car that doesn't smell like an ashtray? What will my clothes do without the stench of smoke? My balcony will even smell like the Jasmine growing on it instead of lingering stale smoke. Wow. Why didn't I think of this before.....like 30 years ago? I did. I quit in 1990 for a full year. Gained 40 pounds, which made it difficult to play soccer....at least I convinced myself the weight made it more difficult to run than the smoking! What caused me to pick it up again? I was still married to the smoking Gorton who had set his smoke down in an ashtray, and I picked that sucker up like I'd never quit. Unbelievable. That's all it took for me to somehow justify starting again. DUMB!!
Anyway, I will keep a running account of how it's going. Stay tuned.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
The Graduate
Okay, so this was taken from a long way from the podium but I got the shot and you can tell she's proud and WE were all proud of her! This wonderful kid lives in Denver and flys all over the country in her job. She's incredible, brilliant, and beautiful....what more could a mom ask! Oh, and by the way? She does triathlons in her spare time! Jeeeez. If you're lucky enough to have raised great kids like I have....count your blessings. I do, every day. All three of them are the greatest!
AHEWG and IJW August 14, 2009
They are the most wonderful kids (not so much kids anymore) but they're MY kids! This silly shot of them was taken at my other wonderful kid's dinner after her graduation from Denver University. Awesome!
Funny how all of our eyes disappear when we smile! I hate that!
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