So, you wonder, how it's going?
Here’s my take on the first day with Chantix – a brilliant idea, by the way, developed by German scientists. Does that surprise me? Not at all.
Anyhoot – first pill, first day: think most of what I felt was all in my head. The anxiety of number 1 – quitting; number 2 – worrying about all the side-effects mentioned in their advertising! The most feared to me is nausea! ARGH! Don’t really care if I have a heart attack, just don’t wanna puke!
Here’s how it went. Felt (other than anxious) fine until around 9:15 when I got into to the elevator to go outside for a ciggie. My contacts were bugging me so I shook my head and immediately got dizzy and saw double! By the time I got out of the elevator (5 floors) I was fine. One of the effects? I have no idea! Caused by anxiety? Probably! Then there were the weird dreams….not bad, not frightening. Colorful. The first thing I remembered when I awoke was the dream was everyone at work wearing the same color two different days. Just weird.
Today is much better…however, I seem to be a little distracted somehow. The stuff I normally do by rote seem to not quite be there….towel-drying my hair this morning seemed different, you know how you always do stuff like that the same way every time! Can’t even explain what was different, just know it was.
One thing I happily noticed this morning was there were more cigs left in my pack than there would normally have been….meaning I had smoked much less than usual and didn’t even notice! Now that’s great….I’m not caring that I’m not noticing that I’m not smoking as much! Does that even make sense? Kinda cool how it just makes ya not care. Very strange stuff.
Update tomorrow >
Here’s my take on the first day with Chantix – a brilliant idea, by the way, developed by German scientists. Does that surprise me? Not at all.
Anyhoot – first pill, first day: think most of what I felt was all in my head. The anxiety of number 1 – quitting; number 2 – worrying about all the side-effects mentioned in their advertising! The most feared to me is nausea! ARGH! Don’t really care if I have a heart attack, just don’t wanna puke!
Here’s how it went. Felt (other than anxious) fine until around 9:15 when I got into to the elevator to go outside for a ciggie. My contacts were bugging me so I shook my head and immediately got dizzy and saw double! By the time I got out of the elevator (5 floors) I was fine. One of the effects? I have no idea! Caused by anxiety? Probably! Then there were the weird dreams….not bad, not frightening. Colorful. The first thing I remembered when I awoke was the dream was everyone at work wearing the same color two different days. Just weird.
Today is much better…however, I seem to be a little distracted somehow. The stuff I normally do by rote seem to not quite be there….towel-drying my hair this morning seemed different, you know how you always do stuff like that the same way every time! Can’t even explain what was different, just know it was.
One thing I happily noticed this morning was there were more cigs left in my pack than there would normally have been….meaning I had smoked much less than usual and didn’t even notice! Now that’s great….I’m not caring that I’m not noticing that I’m not smoking as much! Does that even make sense? Kinda cool how it just makes ya not care. Very strange stuff.
Update tomorrow >
3 comments:
"by rote" -- what does that even mean? i mean, i know what it means and have probably seen it written in a book or something before, but it sounds weird when yuo say it out loud. like you did this morning when we talked on the phone.
anyway, i'm experiencing pretty much the same thing! specifically the colorful dreams. but also the distractedness and feeling different when doing mundane things such as pouring a cup of coffee. and i have cotton mouth. i am not dizzy as much as i am kinda "doot-de-doo" in the head.
and i meant to say that i, too experienced the "wow, lots of ciggies left in this pack. hadn't even noticed."
that's pretty fucking cool.
this is a comment from my life-long friend who quit on Chantix 2 and a half years ago! awesome!
Sent: Thursday, October 08, 2009 1:39 PM
Subject: RE: First day (yesterday) on Chantix ;-]
It's taking you on a trip is what it's doing....just sit back and enjoy the ride....it really does work and you will be glad you did it in the end....I promise....
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